A New Me....Maybe?

I don't normally discuss myself openly. I have this fear of opening up to people about personal matters. But today I will step outside of my comfort zone and just come right out and put myself out there. I am over weight. I have been most of my life and I've dealt with it. I am not ashamed of my myself. I happen to think that my inner beauty is just as important as my outer beauty. However, I have been feeling the need to get healthy for the sake of my children, I intend to be around in this old world for as long as the Good Lord is willing to breathe life into me. I want to watch my children grow up and leave their mark on the world. I want to play with my grandchildren. Heck, I'm ambitious! I want to play with my great grandchildren! Lately, I've realized that maybe I need to worry over my weight a little more than I have in the past. Don't get me wrong, I don't really enjoy being over weight. I have struggled for years to shed the pounds. i have even at times felt like a prisoner in my own body. I have cried over and prayed about and even been depressed about my inability to lose weight. It seems like no matter what i do, the scale just won't budge. I eventually got to the point where I would shut my eyes at the doctor, just so that I wouldn't see those numbers rising on that torture device scale. It gets so overwhelming because I really do work hard to lose the weight! It just doesn't work.....USUALLY. Today I went to the doctor for a follow up visit on my blood pressure. It was elevated last month and they wanted to check it again. I am happy to report that I have lost (drum roll please!!!!) 14 pounds in 4 weeks!!!!! I know that may not seem like much, but to me it is a miracle! I hope that I am able to keep up whatever it is that helped me lose the weight. If anyone has any suggestions that may help me with my road to a newer, thinner Kaleena, please clue me in!!! I will take all the support and help that I can get. I need to lose another 46 pounds to be at my goal weight. Please pray for me to have the strength to stay out of the kitchen become the me I really want to be.