Today

Today, I am grateful. I am going to live, without a battle with cancer. I am going to see my children grow and be all that I hope for them to be. All that they want to be. I am grateful that the worry is over and the all-consuming fear is gone. I am grateful that I get this chance to go on with my life and try to forget the fears of the last month.

Today, I am hopeful. I am hopeful that one day very soon I will be posting about Delaney's first steps. Her first venture into the world of the walking. Every time she stands, every time she lets go, I hold my breath and pray. I pray that her first steps are steady and strong. I pray that those first steps are the first of MANY more steps that I know, much to my sadness, will lead her closer to being a big girl and farther away from being my baby. I am hopeful that, the path she chooses the steps to lead her down, whatever that path may be in life, the path will be in the right direction. I try to teach them to make good choices. I'm hopeful that I will succeed.

Today I am happy. I'm happy that I have a wonderful family with a wonderful husband and three beautiful little girls. I am happy that I will soon watch my Kindergartner walk across that stage and accept that diploma. I am happy that my second grader will be receiving her diploma as well. I am proud of everything they do. I am happy that they are who they are. I am happy that they are mine. I am happy to be alive and I am happy to be their mommy.

Today I am loved. Really loved. By a husband that makes me laugh, smile, and feel special every day. I am loved by a man that seems to live to make me feel like the luckiest woman on Earth. I am loved by a man that makes me feel lucky to be alive. Loved by a husband that couldn't, and didn't try, to resist the urge to sweep me off my feet and dance around the kitchen when we got the call that I don't have cancer. I am loved by a silly man that plans to live to be 148 years old. A man that says I will live to be 148 years old too. I am loved by a man that tells me every single night that I am beautiful and calls me his keeper.

Today I am appreciative. I have a life that I love and a family that I love and a strong relationship with the Lord. I am appreciative of the little things and the big things too. I have a roof over my head, clothing for my family, and I don't have to worry about where our next meal will come from. I have friends that listen with open hearts and open minds. I am blessed.

Tonight, I will be thankful. I will kneel at my bedside, fold my hands in prayer, and lift my eyes to the Lord. I will praise Him....for allowing me this time-to be grateful, hopeful, happy, loved, and appreciative of all the things in my life. I will give him the glory for the time I've had and the time I have left.