Just Frustrated And Needing To Vent

I'm mad and sad and I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of feeling like the world is crashing in on me and there's nothing I can do to stop it. It seems like it's always something. Something always goes wrong. I've begun to give up hope of ever having any good in my life. There's always a stress or a struggle or a sick child or a sick husband or a new medical bill in the mail or drama with the in-laws or drama with the parents. I'm so tired of always worrying and wondering. What's going to hit us next?! It's always there in the back of my mind. I try to cover myself in the good, but I'm always waitng for the "other shoe to drop." I'm just so angry. I'm frustrated and tired of being frustrated. I'm stressed and I need to vent. Forgive me.
I've been freaking out over school starting in 2 weeks. I've worried and wondered how we're going to afford to send the girls back to school with new school clothes and supplies that we just can't afford. I'm trying to figure out how to make a 6 year old and an 8 year old understand that we just don't have the money for new shoes or clothes or supplies right now. I'm trying really hard not to think back to how I felt as a kid, returning to school without all the new things that all the other kids had. We just don't have any extra money right now. Some weeks we do good to put food on the table. Bobby was off work from July of 2008 until April 2009 with his illness. We're so in debt with medical expenses that I feel like I'm drowning in debt everytime I check the mail. We're doing the best we can.
I'm losing my car. I don't know how to take that. I've never missed a payment, never been late on a payment. For 2 years, I've payed for that car every single month on time, everytime. Sadly, my car loan was in my father's name. I didn't qualify for the loan and he offered to take out the loan for me. Then, he took out a personal, unsecured loan for himself. Now, he is seriously far behind on his loan (through the same bank) and they are calling in BOTH loans and taking my car as the collateral on his unpaid loan. My lawyer assures me that what they are doing is legal. They are coming to take my car from me, even though it has been paid for on time, everytime. They don't care that I have 3 kids and can't afford another car or come up with a down payment. They don't care that I have good payment history. They don't care that Laney won't have transportation to therapy and the girls won't have a ride to school. They don't care that I have to take Bobby to neuro appointments and Laney to eye exams and Destiny to counseling and Paisley to the pulminologist. They just don't care. But I do. And that's what keeps me awake at night crying and stressing and worrying. When my car is gone, they are taking more than just my money that I've apparently thrown away for the last 2 years, paying for a car that will never be mine. They are taking away mt ability to take care of my family the way I should be taking care of them. Laney needs that therapy and Bobby needs those neuro appointments and Paisley needs to see the pulminologist. The girls have to go to school and I have to have a car to go grocery shopping or to the doctor. I bet those bank people don't lose any sleep over this.
Forgive me. I just needed to vent.