10/23/09
Blah!
That's how I feel today. Just blah. I still haven't gotten any sleep. What's that old saying? No rest for the weary. There's so much going on here right now. We're dealing with alot of things right now. I feel like I'm trying to juggle too much right now. I've tried not to blog about certain things here lately. I've reached a point where I feel like all I ever blog about is the negative in McNabb Land. I've tried really hard lately to censor myself and only blog with humor or talk only about good things. Thinking about that now though, it feels a bit strange to me. Is it fair to feel like I need to censor myself on my own blog? The purpose I had when starting this blog was for me to have a place to go where I could just "let it all out." We were just trying to make it through some really hard times and I needed a place where I could vent. My husband was recovering from brain surgery and heart surgery, we were just getting started with figuring out all of Delaney's medical jargon, my older girls were having a rough time understanding anything that was happening in their lives, and I felt like I was treading water and barely managing to stay afloat. I honestly felt lost and thought that this blog would be a good place to go to find myself (and maybe make a few friends along the way.) The reality is: Life is hard in McNabb Land, but I also have SO MUCH to be thankful for. I am blessed with this really awesome little family. I make it a daily habit to count my blessings. Sometimes I just need to give myself a little reminder of the blessings in my life. I promise you, I KNOW that I am far luckier than some. No matter what we are dealing with-it can always get worse. There are so many people out there who have much bigger problems than my own. I spend alot of time on my knees thanking God for what we have and praying for Him to give others just a bit of the happiness and love that I have been blessed with. I spend alot of time on my knees praying for all of you! Will you pray for me? I just feel so "blah" today.
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I will absolutely pray for you today. I'm sorry you're feeling so burdened.
ReplyDeleteI think that you should blog about whatever is weighing on your heart - be it heavy stuff or funny stuff. Show your authentic self! Oh if only more people would do that.
Have a wonderful day, sweet sister.
It's your voice Kaleena. If you don't use...who would?
ReplyDeleteKeep talking, without self censoring yourself on your blog.
And I'll keep you in my thoughts.
Kaleena...you are absolutely right about your blog. It is yours. It is like a diary to you....a place to write what you feel.
ReplyDeleteContinue to take care of you and your husband (loved your love story) and your precious girls...and write what you feel. This is your blog....
Love,
Jackie
Kaleena, you are very much allowed to say whatever you want on your blog. It is an encouragement to others (myself included) to hear about when you and your family goes through hard things.
ReplyDeleteand p.s. I did look at all the websites you gave me, thank you so much, do you like the one I chose?
and p.s.s. I am glad we have become friends through blogging. I'm praying for you tonight
I pray for you daily. and will continue to do so. I think most everybody goes thru blaaa times at some time or other, and we need to support each other in prayer and thoughts.
ReplyDeleteThe weather lately is enough to make us all feel bla without adding any financial or physical problems. Hang in there my dear. Things will be better someday.
God will help you through these tough times.
We blogger friends love ya. Blog about whatever is closest to your heart that day. Someday we hope you will be able to go back and read them and actually see how far you have come in life's journey through all these trials.
Keep the faith.
You blog about whatever is on your heart - the good, the bad or the ugly. That's what this is for.
ReplyDeleteI have been feeling "blah" myself lately. I called it a funk.
We appreciate being allowed into your life and being able to share it with you. So don't feel badly if you go through a phase that leans one way or another. We'll be here for you. {grin}
Kaleena, You get to blog about whatever you want! It's your blog and we must like reading it or we wouldn't be coming back right? We are friends! I have worried too about complaining or being negative on my blog, but I have realized that my blog is really for me and I find such healing in expressing myself and talking about things even if no on else is going to read it. I try to not think about who will read it while I am writing a post. Your family has come a long way since you started writing. You have figured a lot out about your kids' medical problems and you have grown a lot. I am proud of you and I love reading your blog. I really enjoyed the post about what you do in the middle of the night when you can't sleep! I actually took Irish step dancing classes a few years ago. It was fun!
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