I went to the doctor last week for my annual women's wellness exam. While there, I had a breast exam. My doctor found a lump. As I laid there, hearing those words, I could see my life pass before my eyes. I know it's crazy, but that's how I felt. Like I had just been sucker punched.
Hard.
In the chest.
So, tomorrow (Monday), I am going for a mammogram and breast ultrasound. What scares me the most is how quickly the appointment was scheduled and how soon the appointment was set up for. I am accustomed to having to wait, at least a few weeks, for a referral appointment for anything.
I am scared of breast cancer. I am scared that I may have breast cancer. My grandmother died of breast cancer. I am scared for my 3 girls. I want to be healthy for them. I want to live a LONG life. Watch them grow up. Watch them fall in love. Watch them marry. I want to play with my grandchildren. And their children! I want to do alot more with my life. I have all these plans and dreams. And a lump in my breast has NEVER been included in those plans.
So, tomorrow, if it's not too much to ask, could you please pray that the lump is not there. Or maybe, if it is there, pray that it's nothing to be concerned about. I really need it to be nothing. My girls need it to be nothing. I want to live. I hate to sound so dramatic, but I can't seem to help it. I want to live to be old. I want to do alot of things. But i don't want to survive breast cancer. I don't want to have breast cancer, at all! Please Lord, let it be nothing!
Oh my goodness Kaleena...I am so sorry. You will definatly be in my prayers and thoughts!
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I will be praying. Thank you for coming to us with this request. I know it must of been hard.
ReplyDeleteBe comforted dearest. It is GOOD that they are checking this out and quickly. But at your age (and having had children reduces your risk as does nursing, if you were able to do that), it is unlikely that it will be cancerous.
ReplyDeleteI had a lump removed at 17, and a ductectomy (had to remove a large breat duct that was bleeding) after The Wild Man was born (3 years after). And I have been called back for multiple follow-ups for mammos where they wanted to see something just to be sure. And by God's grace, no cancer anytime.
I tell you all this in the hope you can rest in the fact that "follow-ups" "mammograms" and even "let's just be sure surgery" doesn't have to mean cancer.
I will pray that God will give you peace and rest tonight and a good outcome, with news right away.
Please let us know as soon as you can. ((hugs))
Just a blogger from Ohio.... I only followed your blog for a few days praying for your daughters. I am praying so hard and will be for you tomorrow! For me breast cancer is so scary!!!! I have many years of "work" ahead of me and the big C is too scary to think about.
ReplyDeleteRemember God holds all these answers.... he will never leave you. I am praying for peace to cover you till this scare is past.
I will check in again soon....
I also have been following your blog, praying for your daughters.
ReplyDeleteI hesitate to suggest it, but conventional medicine may not be the way to go. There is so much you can do thru alternative medicine that is so much healthier & safer. That's all i'll say right now. When you are scared it is hard to make decisions, but if you want to pursue a different avenue, email me & i can direct you toward different sites.
I'll be praying.
You poor thing! Try not to worry until you have to. I wasted three weeks worrying after I found a lump in December, which my PCP felt, too. I went in for a mammogram, then an ultrasound. The experts didn't find anything, which was a big relief to me. They told me while I was there not to worry about the fact that my grandmother had breast cancer, that older onset bc is not a big indicator when it comes to us younger gals.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, Kaleena. Please keep us posted. :)
I can understand why you are scared. Telling you not to be is easier said than done. Do trust in the Lord and all of us are praying for you. Hang in there and keep us posted.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Kaleena. Will say a prayer for you for the lump to be of no worry. Keep the faith!
ReplyDeleteKaleena, I can very well relate to how you feel. I have been through exactly what you are going thru. Ultra sounds, mammogramms, biopsies, (3 different kinds). Yes, I know your fears and anxieties. We will pray for you.
ReplyDeleteHopefully everything will show and come back B9 (Which is good).
Hang in there!
Kaleena, a few yers ago I found a lump and when they did the ultrasound they found that it was just a cyst that was benign and it wouldn't cause any problems and also wouldn't raise my chances for breast cancer. They are pretty common, so don't worry too much just yet okay? Good chance it is not a big deal, but I will pray for you none the less.
ReplyDeleteChecking in on you! I have been praying for no preblems today at your mammogram. I will be checking back.
ReplyDeleteYou are in lots of prayers along with your family.
Praying that everything comes back normal for you. Please keep us updated!
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