Updates and thank you's

I have to start out by saying thank you to everyone that has left me those great comments. You have know idea how much it means to me to know that so many people are pulling for my girls. I am so grateful to all of you for your prayers.
As far as updates go, there's not much to report. My Destiny is restless and wants to come home. I'm not sure what this mess has done to her (as far as brain damage?) but she is like a different child lately. She is so emotional. She cries all the time. My husband tried to get her to eat today and she just started crying. She said she didn't know why she was crying, she just didn't want to eat. She also is afraid of everything. Today he said that Destiny kept saying she was scared. He asked her what she was afraid of and she said it was the noise. He never did figure out what noise she was talking about. He swears it was so quiet in there that you could have heard a pin drop. I want to talk to her doctor about that.
Delaney is doing the crying thing too. I'm getting so tired of being called on my cell phone just so that I can listen to how upset she is. Is it supposed to make me feel good that she's crying because she wants me? I can't handle knowing that my girls need me and I'm not able to be there with them 24/7!!! It's almost more than I can bear. Laney's fever was up to 103 today. I worry that she's been sick so long. She also had trouble with her tummy today. She gets the worst stomach cramps! When we're at home I like to cuddle her up against me when she has tummy cramps and rock her until the cramps subside. I hate this. I hate this! I HATE THIS!!!!! This is just too much. I need to be with all my girls. I need them to be healthy so I can bring us all home together. My poor husband is just beside himself over all this. He's not feeling well himself since his brain and heart surgeries. I worry that this stress will be too much for him to deal with. We haven't even had any time together in a week. More than that really. It's driving me mad!
Paisley is just pitiful tonight. Her fever went down for a time (earlier today) but I guess I got too excited about it because it shot right back up again in no time! Her poor little teeth are ruined. The fever has caused her little teeth to get all spotty. I could cry! She was so nauseous today. Poor little thing! Every time I got her cleaned up, she would move her head and throw up again. They finally had to give her phenergan. It knocked her out in just a few minutes, but she woke up cranky and weepy. I guess they all needed a crying day. My turn now. WWWWWWAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! OK. I'm done.
I have this terrible headache that just won't quit. I have this heartache that won't quit either. The thing that keeps popping into my mind is that I'm tired of all these hospital stays. And it's far from over. If Delaney is healthy enough soon, her eye surgery is scheduled for March 20. Then we get to start all over again with a new hospital stay in a totally different city. Far from home. Far from my big girls. Far from family. With my heart split. In different directions. AGAIN.
I'm trying to stay positive, but it's getting really hard. I keep thinking. Bad things. "What-if's" that don't belong in my head. Enough of that. I need to snuggle my girls. Good night for now.
Thank you all again. Please continue to lift us up in your prayers. God bless you all!